[ cool cool cool cool cool cool this is fine this is so fine he's fine fine fine no he is not

but he has to be. he has to focus. focus the fuck up, Heron. Disorder needs him, they can't all be panicking and passing out and bleeding out on the floor oh that is so much blood he can taste it, feel it gushing hot and free, see it why can he see it - it's fine. it hurts but that's fine it's fine it's better that it hurts him than Phoenix, who is just a kid, who was on the edge of breaking. Heron won't break. he won't won't won't he refuses to it's just pain pain so much pain and the blood and anxiety - oh, he was already anxious and it's overflowing, his heart rabbiting in his chest but it's okay. he knows how to breathe, when his mouth and nose aren't full of blood at least, breathe, breathe and focus, Phoenix is just a kid and Heron is -

Heron is -

- spitting out blood and shuddering, hunching over with a pained noise right in front of Phoenix, clutching his hand against his chest - ]

Hkk, ahh... nng.

[ - Heron is fine. He's fine with this. Better him than anyone else. He can take it, can shove the pain and anxiety down, down, down, like his - like he's taught himself. lock it up in a box and spin the locks, two, four, eight. breathe.

He slaps his free hand on the ground and raises his head. ]

- Good. Great. That's great. Doing better?